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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Time To Get My PHATABULOUS Butt in Shape!

Well, I have been procrastinating and procrastination and procrastinating some more about losing weight. Why? I have no earthly clue...maybe because I love food wayyyy to much when I actually eat, maybe it's because my husband wears some kind of goggles that makes him see a beautiful me even though I am a "fat" girl, maybe it's hereditary. I don't know. I lost weight once before but not for the right was because I was married to my ex-asshat that was convinced that I needed to look like Trish Stratus in order to be beautiful. I lost from 300lbs down to 143lbs. However, maintaining 160lbs on my 5'2" inch self was at my most healthiest since somehow I inherited my great grandmother's linebacker frame. I got pregnant with Chloe and did was my dad calls "self-sabotaging" and gained back 80lbs. I did pretty good with the boys and only gained and lost 20 lbs with each pregnancy.
But then came the stress eating and now I am almost back up to 300lbs. I don't want to be 300lbs...what person in their absolute mind would want to be 300lbs??? My weight is 277lbs as of today.
I have my 10 year class reunion at the end of June and I did not want to go back as the "fat" girl that got made fun of. Though I do get a kick out of all the guys that refused to date me because I was fat or made fun of me...well you see, a few of them married fat girls, or even better, they got fat themselves! I think it's great! I know that seems so very snarky, but I have anxiety issues because of these no, I don't feel bad for them. I wish them nothing but happiness. Though part of me wants to walk into my reunion and have some of them go "D-A-M-N, what was I thinking? I should've dated her", but we all know that is not going to happen! That's only in the movies ;P!
So anywho, back to the topic at hand...I gotta lose some kind of weight. Because I want to, for the right reasons. What are these reasons?
1.) I want ENERGY!
2.) I want to look good in a bathing suit...I know, so shallow!
3.) I want to look awesome on my husband's arm when we head to our new command in July.
4.) I want to play with my kids at the park without thinking "I am going to die, they are going to kill me" while heaving my big rear a few feet from the monkey bars to the swings.
5.) I want to not have to shop at Lane Bryant, Ashley Stewart, or Avenue...I wanna shop at Old Navy, Gap, Abercrombie & Fitch, Victoria Secret, & Aeropostale, Dammit! Ya know, the normal people stores???
6.) and last but not least, I wanna go ride roller coasters at Busch Gardens without thinking "Is my big hiney going to fit in the seat?"!

I think these are pretty good reasons...Don't you?
So yeah, I belong to a group of Cafemom, Cuties with Cloth Booties, and we are doing a 30 day challenge. So, I joined the challenge. It will be fun! I'll go ahead and give a shout out to Mega.Mama & Calebsmomma since they just started their blogs. I'll do a link back later.
I'll post my measurements the day that the challenge starts and maybe a pic so I can track my progress on here as well.



  1. You go girl! I wish we lived closer and I wasn't such a depressed bad person, or I would do this with you!! You look wonderful now, so your gonna rock out when your done!! Love ya!

  2. I think u are beautiful the way you are- but of course I have never been an exterior person. I know you are a great wife to Greg and a great mom to your kids, and to me that is what matters. Keep your chin up! And know you are already beautiful!

  3. Good luck Becky! I know you can do it! You are a beautiful person inside and out but I completely understand how you feel. Duncan and I are thinking the same thing about keeping up with Owen. He wears us out already and he isn't even walking. We need to get in better shape as well!

    I wish you the best and I will be praying for you!!!!