But then came the stress eating and now I am almost back up to 300lbs. I don't want to be 300lbs...what person in their absolute mind would want to be 300lbs??? My weight is 277lbs as of today.
I have my 10 year class reunion at the end of June and I did not want to go back as the "fat" girl that got made fun of. Though I do get a kick out of all the guys that refused to date me because I was fat or made fun of me...well you see, a few of them married fat girls, or even better, they got fat themselves! I think it's great! I know that seems so very snarky, but I have anxiety issues because of these people...so no, I don't feel bad for them. I wish them nothing but happiness. Though part of me wants to walk into my reunion and have some of them go "D-A-M-N, what was I thinking? I should've dated her", but we all know that is not going to happen! That's only in the movies ;P!
So anywho, back to the topic at hand...I gotta lose some kind of weight. Because I want to, for the right reasons. What are these reasons?
1.) I want ENERGY!
2.) I want to look good in a bathing suit...I know, so shallow!
3.) I want to look awesome on my husband's arm when we head to our new command in July.
4.) I want to play with my kids at the park without thinking "I am going to die, they
5.) I want to not have to shop at Lane Bryant, Ashley Stewart, or Avenue...I wanna shop at Old Navy, Gap, Abercrombie & Fitch, Victoria Secret, & Aeropostale, Dammit! Ya know, the normal people stores???
6.) and last but not least, I wanna go ride roller coasters at Busch Gardens without thinking "Is my big hiney going to fit in the seat?"!
I think these are pretty good reasons...Don't you?
So yeah, I belong to a group of Cafemom, Cuties with Cloth Booties, and we are doing a 30 day challenge. So, I joined the challenge. It will be fun! I'll go ahead and give a shout out to Mega.Mama & Calebsmomma since they just started their blogs. I'll do a link back later.
I'll post my measurements the day that the challenge starts and maybe a pic so I can track my progress on here as well.
Love,
B
You go girl! I wish we lived closer and I wasn't such a depressed bad person, or I would do this with you!! You look wonderful now, so your gonna rock out when your done!! Love ya!
ReplyDeleteI think u are beautiful the way you are- but of course I have never been an exterior person. I know you are a great wife to Greg and a great mom to your kids, and to me that is what matters. Keep your chin up! And know you are already beautiful!
ReplyDeleteGood luck Becky! I know you can do it! You are a beautiful person inside and out but I completely understand how you feel. Duncan and I are thinking the same thing about keeping up with Owen. He wears us out already and he isn't even walking. We need to get in better shape as well!
ReplyDeleteI wish you the best and I will be praying for you!!!!